Total Consecration 2014: Day 11

Reading – Matthew 7: 21-23

from Pope St. John Paul II – General Audience, September 11, 1996

A long-standing personal prayer of mine has been simply this: “Whatever Your will is, Lord, it shall be mine as well.” I remember starting to pray that prayer when I was in high school as I was beginning to learn more about my faith.

Of course, the greatest interior struggles and personal battles I have been through since forever has been the times when I thought my will was greater than God’s. Even recently, that’s kind of resurfaced again as I think about my future. Upon closer examination (of conscience?!), it seems that if I pursue my will over God’s, I lose focus on heaven.

And even as I pursue doing good things, sometimes I do good for the sake of doing good and not keeping in mind if it’s really God’s will or not. It kind of goes back to focusing on self rather than on heaven.

Jesus teaches that

Not every one who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven.

Hmm. “He who does the will of my Father.”  Not JD’s will. The Father’s will.

That’s what makes Mary so awesome. She was totally obedient to God’s will. “May it be done to me according to thy word.” She’s a great model to follow God’s will with docility and trust. And as Simeon told her at the Presentation–her heart will be pierced. Following God’s will doesn’t guarantee happy and warm feels.

That’s a good summary of my faith journey so far. Following God’s will is difficult because of its ups and downs. And in the downs, it is so tempting to not trust God’s will. I need to be ready like Mary.

When the angel Gabriel visited Mary, she had a new resolve to do God’s will. I need to carefully reflect on my upcoming life transitions and really begin to pray for God’s will to be done.

And I offer my thoughts, works, and desires to Mary so that she may purify, embellish, and present these to Jesus through her Immaculate Heart.

Totus tuus,
– JD

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